Being a kid

So when i was a kid like when I was 10 or 11
It was the first season for the o.c series I asked my brother like more than once I want to see it but every time I asked he said "you are a kid and this is for grown-ups" so at that age the only thing that I can think us god my brother watch illegal movies and shows
So when I got my first laptop I don't remember really when it was but I think I was 13 maybe
So it took me years to be a computer geek and to find the o.c online to watch it so when I fisrt saw it I said " I really don't know why my bro didn't want me to watch it"
And I still don't know

The reason I remember this and want.to write about it because I started to see it again and because. I didn't see it all in the past

XOXO

feel good

It's 5 a.m and i can't sleep till now

it just i have one thing for girls out there

you just feel good about your self if you think that make-up will make you beautiful then you are wrong

what i think about make-up is that it just a mask a girl put it on daily basis so that she wont show for other her real self

if you are asking how a make-up could be a mask then here is the answer

there are girls who what to show others that they are beautiful so they dress up and put make-up just for a show but the truth that they are a strait A students but if they show that to others they may think that this girls are geeks

why do we care what others think? or why do we put make-up just to show others that we are beautiful?

the truth is their is no answer to this it just the nature for us the humans

hey girls just put this in your mind whether you are fat or too thin or you are smart or not, make-up wont solve every think just show others the real you because there is a guy out there who will love you just the way you are even if it's with out make-up and to do that you have to feel good about your self at first

XOXO

wedings

I hate wedding I hate that i have to wake up early so that i would take a shower it's not that i don't take a shower i just hate to wake up so early ;p 

Oh yeah and i hate doing my hair for 2 hours most of the times i just let it dry by it self or a put hair gel on it and i hate dresses and high heels i really don't know how you girls walk in those 

almost forgot to say that in my country the weddings happen at night and we receive a ballroom for it well that's what on my mind now 

XOXO

new life

So i have been sleeping early for couple days -.- that never happened to me the last time i remembered that i slept early i was 10.......

Recovering from a break up never it's not easy i remember i cried cut my arms and lot's of other things that i regretted to do for some one that never cared for me because if he cared i would be the one that he married right ?!

Most of my old friends hated him so when we break up they didn't show they just left me so i asked from my parents to transfer me to another school it was hard and it took me like months
But i found a real friends, a friends whom stood with me when i need them and they are the one who helped me to start a new life

XOXO

How to get strong ?!

Well i don't know how, but all i know that i became strong after my first love left me and got married to another girl from his family side

here is me story with love it's always a bad luck for me to be in love, like it's a curse or something
my first love was at the age of 12 and it lasted for almost 9 years ...........

yup that was weird 9 year i even don't know how could he stand me all that time
it ended in my second year in university and he thought that it would be fine with me to stay with him even if he is married and i was thinking WTF for 9 years and he still don't know me .......

i don't know how i got over him but all i know that after what happened between us i hated all the guys and i don't know why although there where nice guys out there but i didn't give them any chance

that's my love story and how i don't know how to get strong after that, it just happen naturally.......

XOXO

who is this person !!

So today i will tell you a little about me .......

I'm the kind of girls who hates make up or dressing up for something

I prefer playing video games rather than go shopping

I have my own thoughts but hate to share it with others because, they think that my way of thinking is complicated

I hate it when guys control their girls or let them do what they want from them and they never give them any attention

So basically that's me ........

XOXO 

weird -.-

it's weird for me to write about my life or what i'm thinking of,  but i don't know i just want to try it and the other reason is that someone said that my way of thinking is different from other girls in Arab world...... 
i hope that is true.............